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Before You Go

A Novel

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"Hats off to that brave soul daring to write what might be called speculative literary fiction, and willing to venture answers to questions beyond even those of life & death. Tommy Butler's debut novel Before You Go has a big beating heart and a mind all its own." — Joshua Ferris, author of The Dinner Party and Then We Came to the End

A big, rich, life-affirming debut that explores the most perplexing questions of existence: purpose, the pain of loneliness, the desire for happiness, and the price we pay as we search for fulfillment.
In the Before, humankind is created with a hole in its heart, the designers not realizing their mistake—if it was a mistake—until too late.

Elliot Chance is just a boy, and knows nothing of this. All he knows is that he doesn't feel at home in this world, and his desire for escape becomes more urgent as he grows into adulthood, where the turbulence of life seems to offer no cure for the emptiness. Desperate and lost, he stumbles upon a support group on the edge of Manhattan. There he meets two other drifting souls—Sasha, a young woman who leaves coded messages in the copy she writes for advertising campaigns, and Bannor, whose detailed depictions of the future make Elliot think he may have actually been there. With these two unlikely allies, Elliot launches into the business of life, determined to be happy in spite of himself.

Yet the hole in the heart is not so easily filled.

Profound yet playful, Before You Go is a beautiful, imaginative journey into the ache and wonder of being human, and the quest for a meaningful life.

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    • Publisher's Weekly

      Starred review from June 22, 2020
      Butler brilliantly imagines the creation of human life, and the toll its imperfection takes on Elliot, a Gen-X man from Connecticut, in this dazzling debut. Interludes headed “Before” describe a rather slipshod process of otherworldly creation, in which a being named Merriam places a tiny void in her design of the human body that leaves people with an unconscious, undefined longing, while her partner, Jollis, dumps bottles of emotions into the hole to try to fix it. In the central narrative, Elliot Chance, whom the reader meets at age nine in 1981, is, like everyone else, subject to his body’s major design flaw, but at this age, he doesn’t yet feel it. Butler describes Elliot and his older brother’s innocent years playing outside and confronting the power of nature in beautiful, heart-wrenching prose. Elliot has a few kindred spirits in high school and college, but drifts through a depression as a young adult in New York City until he’s invited to a suicide prevention group, where he connects with Sasha, who writes ad copy with encrypted messages demeaning the client’s product, and Bannor, who claims he has traveled to the future. Bannor tells Elliot about the forthcoming pharmaceutical interventions that will medicate all emotions. Meanwhile, Elliot battles depression until he finds the value of living in the moment. Butler’s treatise on the value of life with all its moments of darkness and light leaves the reader with aching gratitude for their existence. Agent: Doug Stewart, Sterling Lord Literistic.

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